Today i finally built up the courage to tell my parents about being pregnant, i had prepared what i was going to say and how i was going to act and i thought about all of the things they could do or say. I felt ready i knew if i kept waiting it would only get harder to tell them....So i put my big girl pants on and walked downstairs to the kitchen to where my mother was making lunch, we started off with the casual hey how are you type of thing then all the sudden i realized our kitchen tv had the show Teen Mom on. Why in the world was my mother watching this show, i was silent for a moment after i had realized what was on the tv then all the sudden my mom said
“I just feel so bad for those girls, its a shame they haven't even finished their teenage years and their already having kids, im so glad your not one of them.“
I felt like my chest was going to fall out my ass at that very moment, i started to shake and i couldn't seem to breathe properly... i just shook my head and replied with “yes lucky me.“
I walked right back up stairs and went straight to my room, the courage was completley gone.
I had no idea what to say after that, i wanted to cry and tell her everything but i knew i couldn't not right there after what she had just said she seemed so disgusted with those girls. The last thing i needed at this moment in my life was for my mom to think of me as a slut or something.
I don't believe in abortion personally, so i knew i was going to keep this baby.
But now i have to think about who`s going to “keep“ me once i tell my parents. I know for a fact they will not want me living with them, i live in North Hollywood my dad has worked with all sorts of stars and my mom owns some clothing stores here, having a 17 year old daughter who`s pregnant doesn't exactly fit in with their life style. Chris still hasn't told his parents either! Hes still searching for a place but what are his parents going to think when they find out their paying for a two bedroom their going to be suspicious hopefully they`ll know by then i mean im not exactly a size 0 anymore...
Well its pretty late here, and im exhausted not physically but emotionally i don't even want to continue with school i feel like i just want to give up on life.
xox
Kelsey
Oh honey, just get it over with. They need to know and they are going to react however they are going to react. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteWOW. I can only imagine that. She just HAD TO BE watching Teen Mom and say that comment...but I guess you just got to tell her and get it over with you will feel better once you get it off your chest! I wish you the best of luck!!
ReplyDeleteI wish you luck.
ReplyDeleteIt will be okay. It's so not easy. I can still remember when I had to tell my parents only a month after I graduated High School and was plannign to go to college with Honors and a scholarship that I was pregnant at the age of 18. They were not happy at all, but after some time to sink in they accepted it and helped me out. Until I lost the baby at 7 weeks along. Even then, they were understanding when I chose to move in with my boyfriend for us to cope with the loss together and make a life for ourselves. I got lucky. I hope you are too! It's never easy, but I can tell you waiting makes it that much harder and you'll make yourself sick. I was almost to the point of throwing up from being so scared about it. Big Hugs!!!
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